Tuesday, December 29, 2009 10:20 PM
It's been a wonderful, eye-opening, finding myself kind of a year. I feel like this is the happiest I have ever been. I pause there and think about my college years, because that was such a unique and amazing time, but that was ignorant bliss at its best! And quite honestly, college was quite painful for me - my first heartbreak, first hangover, first (and last) "kicked out of the honors program"...yeah lots of painful firsts..without much understanding or growth as a result!
This, right now is the happiest and most aware that I have ever been. And I want more. I expect more. I expect more success, resilience and growth. I look forward to more love, honesty and enlightening experiences. I'm excited. I can't wait to share more, to find more ways to express myself, to uncover what has been suppressed for so long.
New calendar, new year, new decade - it's all the same. We don't have to wait. Every single moment offers the opportunity to establish new habits and change old ones. I continue to make a conscious effort to give up the following vices:
3. Not asking for help
4. Apologizing for being me
5. Narrow mindedness
7. Needing to have the last word
8. Negative and limiting thinking
9. Expecting people to read my mind
10.Doing things the same way and expecting different results
Could it be that life itself is round and every ending is actually a beginning? Dare I define my own world where there are no mistakes..only self-discovery? I dare. If I tried to do it any other way, I'd be lost in this place.
Happy New Year and Peace and Blessings to you always!
Erykah Badu - Didn't Cha Know