Friday, October 14, 2011 11:54 AM
Posted by GG Renee | Filed under Love and Locks
This is how my wall looks at work. I post positive affirmations, scriptures, quotes and excerpts everywhere. If you're not in the habit of surrounding yourself with inspiration, you should change that. Make your world a vision board.
So, how was your week? I got a scary text from my sister on Thursday saying she'd been in a car accident. She was shaken up, but otherwise unscathed. Reality is so unwelcome and disruptive sometimes, isn't it? I'm so thankful that she's okay, but I have to admit that sometimes I feel so resentful about the fragility of life, you know? I have such wonderful people in my life and I love big and yet I have no control over what happens. I picture all of my loved ones with a bubble of protection around them constantly, because somehow I believe that I can keep them safe that way.
I've been feeling really goofy and awkward lately. A couple weeks ago, I had to give a presentation at a work offsite and I got up in front of everyone and completely forgot what I was going to say. I willed the earth to open up and swallow me, and nothing happened so I just try to salvage what I could of my presentation. At least I finished it, but I was really disappointed in myself. Even more disappointed when I felt the knot forming in my throat! I didn't cry in front of everyone, thank God! I remember thinking about when Carrie fell flat on her face on the runway on that episode of Sex and the City. She got back up and kept walking. Yes, I really thought about that in the midst of the ordeal.
But there's more. (And all of these things keep happening at work!) I've walked into a few doors and walls. Oh, and then there was the time a couple days ago when I was eating and flung food across the table onto two people. I've been saying random things that I wish I could take back as soon as they leave my mouth. The absolute worst fiasco occurred when I actually got my period on the guest chair in my MALE colleague's office. Yes, I stood up to leave only to look down and see a huge blood stain on the seat. WTF? What am I, 13? (Fortunately, with the help of a friend, I was able to get the chair out of his office and switch it with a clean one, undetected.)
I think I just need to relax and accept my occasional awkwardness. It really is just part of who I am. I like to think of myself as very sophisticated and put together, but inside I'm just a girl who's a bit sheltered and a bit uncertain. I see things much differently than a lot of people, so I'm always studying - trying to figure out how other people perceive things. As a result, I'm often distracted or on another wavelength. I'm in my own little world and I come out to interact and play and learn. I guess that's what we all do to some extent.
The only hair update I have is that I'm preparing a post on my current staples and fall regimen. That's coming soon. I recently provided a couple quick updates here and here.
So, for now I'll leave you with some hair and style inspiration and remind you to try to be carefree and do things your own way. Even if your way is a little bit sideways and goofy. The world needs that too.