Do You Know Where You're Going To?

Saturday, July 7, 2012 11:13 AM


Life loves to be taken by the lapel and told: "I am with you kid. Let's go." ~Maya Angelou

If you haven't noticed, songs often find their way into my blog titles. Sometimes I feel like that's cheating, but my life has always been set to a soundtrack in my own mind, so it only makes sense. Seriously, why can't life be a musical where people spontaneously break out into song and dance? Maybe because that type of rapture is reserved for heaven. Do you think there will be a live band there?

Wait. I'm getting off topic. Do you ever feel like things are moving too quickly and yet aren't happening fast enough? If not, have you hit 30 yet? Maybe then you'll feel me. As soon as I think I know myself, I change. I was a naive, college student, then a well-meaning, self-destructive young adult, then a confused and ill-equipped parent.

Now, I'm just Me.
Who will I be next?
And then?
Oh, Me some more.

Because at some point, you stop trying to label yourself. It becomes too limiting.  Plus, the real reason we do it in the first place is because we want to define ourselves before someone else does.   But who cares?  Jess nailed it when she said " just get to a point in life when you stop allowing yourself to be burdened with the possible judgment of others. Its not absolute, but the time between “what will they say” and “who cares, fuck it” gets shorter."

Life keeps showing me that the circumstances and people around me will change and that I will do my share of changing, but I don't need to be afraid of the unknown. My life has been a beautiful struggle where I've had to make choices, break rules, and be brave. I never know what will happen next but I trust that I will continue to find beautiful things inside and outside of myself - no matter where I go.

P.S.  I keep thinking about this live band.  Do you think they will take requests?  My first request will be "September" by Earth, Wind and Fire.