What We Have Is Much More Than They Can See

Wednesday, June 20, 2012 12:33 AM


There is a purpose to our lives that each day tugs at our sleeve as an annoying distraction. ~Robert Brault

Sometimes it just feels like it's not happening fast enough.  I walk into my job everyday knowing that I could be significantly more impactful doing something completely different.  Do you ever feel like that?

Most of my colleagues are very passionate about our business.  I see them doing things to shine and stand out.  I'd rather be in the background, quietly doing my thing, thinking different thoughts.  I'm not driven by the same things.  I definitely feel like I'm the kid who's doing her own thing, dancing to a different beat. 

I feel that what I do is out of alignment with who I am.   Kimmie explained to me that this is called cognitive dissonance.   I know that change is coming.  But I'm feeling impatient.  10 years and three kids ago, I probably would have just quit.   Now, I have to be more strategic than that.

In the meantime, I'm making the best of it and deliberately putting myself out there to show that my motivations and contributions are not only different but highly valuable.  You have to believe that on the inside before anyone will recognize it on the outside.  You must know that what you have is more than others may initially see - then trust that the right opportunities will come.

If you don't decide what your life is about, it defaults to what you spend your days doing. ~Robert Brault

Are you spending your days using your gifts and doing what you love?!

{free spirit}

Wednesday, June 6, 2012 10:00 AM

It's better to be sure of yourself and uncertain of everyone else than to play yourself small and hide what makes you special. 

What is your life really like? People think they know but they really don't. No one has ever been me but me.  No one has ever been you but you. So we should all just do what feels personally right and let others do the same.

The Truth About Creative Living (Part II)

Monday, June 4, 2012 5:27 PM


I have a confession to make. (Another one? Yes, another one.) I'm afraid of being left behind. Not left behind as in stranded on a deserted island - but left behind as in everyone around me overcoming and succeeding and I'm still left in the same place running around in circles chasing my tail. I've never really thought of myself as an ambitious, competitive person and I still don't. I don't need to win all the time, and when I do win, I prefer that everyone else is winning with me. But it is important to me to fulfill my purpose and keep progressing. I suppose this is why I have this annoying fear of not growing and accomplishing fast enough. Make sense?  Sound familiar?  I'll come back to that.

In Part I, I talked about:

- removing limiting thoughts from your mind so you can envision the life you really want
- trusting your inner voice and relishing your growth process
- accepting fear and failure as a necessary part of life

That was about three months ago. Since then I've had some successes, some failures and some a-ha moments. I've been happy and thriving and yet I know that I could feel better. I'm way too stressed all the time and I feel so overextended that I'm not able to be as thoughtful and involved as I would like in every aspect of my life. The most significant a-ha moment I've had is the realization that a great deal of this stress and anxiety comes from the fact that I'm still not fully trusting my experience.  I always want things to go a certain way as a sign that I'm on the right path. When things don't happen as quickly as I would like then I immediately think that I'm doing something wrong. 

I was reading The Daily Love the other day and Mastin was talking about detachment and developing this mindset:  "I just don't mind how it goes."  He said that "when you are in that mindset, disaster isn't disaster; what you have is abundance and where you are is perfect. This isn't to say you shouldn't work, try and do. But, if you are attached to a certain outcome, you may be missing the bigger picture..."


These are things that I already know but I forget about when distracted by what other people are doing. I know that I should trust my instincts more and remember that seeing the big picture requires a bigger lens.

What happened to all the promises I made to myself?

-To remember my intrinsic value and goodness and relinquish the need to constantly prove myself.
-To accept that what works for her, him or them may not work for me.
-To expect surprises and miracles and detours and embrace them.
-To relish the journey for what it's worth and let go of the outcome.

And just like that - I feel centered again.

When I write about the things that hurt me, scare me, intimidate me, somehow magically they lose their power - allowing me to see clearly again.  And the energy that I was using to worry and be afraid is rechannelled into being productive and creating work that helps people.

So my advice to all of you who are seeking to live more creatively is to stay focused on the big picture and don't get bogged down by self-doubt.  Rely on your personal outlets to keep you zoned into your own progress.  Stay the course.